silver lining

It has been a bad few days.

I have been stressed out partly about money or the lack of it. trying to keep everything going. tying to make sure we can eat, we have gas and electricity and making the rent payments. The other bills are not being paid at the moment.

It would have been nice to go out at the weekend to be somewhere different to be with someone who wants to be with me.

This afternoon things got too much, I wanted to get into my bed and curl up an just cry.

but I made myself go to the gym.

I weighed myself and I have lost weight. I have gone from 92.0kg (14.4848lb) to 90.7 kg (14.2828lb).

my man has just text me......don't worry be happy .........and that was before I told him I lost weight. ;-)

its working

It must be working!!!

today I am wearing my size 18 jeans without being cut in half

another week

another week nearly over
I am learning
I'm mostly managing to keep off the bread and the pastry and the sugar
not weighed myself since monday when I found that I had not gained or lost any weight but stayed the same.
I have now changed my breakfast as apparently that was not a good choice....... too much sugar
I am getting back into the habit of home cooking (don't know how long that will last)

mystery

ok so I may not have been totally on track with the diet this week but I have been trying and I don't expect to be perfect from the word go. It is after all a learning experience.

So why is it that when I weighed myself yesterday at the gym I had put on 1lb

its a mystery to me

not only have I been trying to follow the diet but I ahve been to the gym.

ok maybe I should have weighed myself after not before my workout

I am not going to worry about it
just hope its a different story next time I weigh myself on monday

weight

ouch I just did a weight conversion

I got on the scales at the gym today figuring they will be more accurate than mine.

92.1 kg = 203 lb = 14 st 5lb

so that means I have put on about 2 stone in just over a year.

summer of 2006 I was wearing size 14/16 skirts and trousers depending on the cut.
but right now I am back to size 18/20 which is just so hateful

but there is no way I am going back to the size 24 I was about 3 years ago.

last time I lost the weight it was through stress....this time it will be done properly and it will stay off

do you hear me weight

be gone

you are not wanted

go go go goooooooooooooooo!!!

I feel better now ;-)

from small beginnings

Hmmmm if it was a small beginning I wouldn't need to do this it's a small end I want.

Anyway from small beginnings

I have made a start

used skimmed milk on my cereal and in my mug of tea

took an apple to work for my mid morning snack

so no more sausage rolls mid morning

and I have stocked up on my cottage cheese and ryvitas for snacks

Today I received my new bible
just having a quick look through it to see what I can and can't eat.

It looks like theres going to be lots of measuring body parts too
Arms
chest
waist
hips
thigh

In the beginning

I received the email today telling me that today is the first day of the rest of my life.

so here goes lets see if this works