feeling good

I'm feeling fat but at the same time good

I have not been sticking to my diet but I have been trying

Its the xmas period then the long cold dark days that don't help

but today I have been to the gym

its only the 3rd time this year so not great

but when I weighed myself today I had lost a little weight.

last sunday I was 90.8kg today I am 90.3kg so that is approx 1/2 lb

1/2 lb lost is much better than 1/2 gained

I will get there however slowly lol

new year new beginings

Ok I have not been a very good girl with the diet since the start of December. Neither have I been to the gym as first I twisted my ankle so it was too painful to do much for a few days then I got a cold then it was xmas then I got ill again and so on and so on.

But as of two days ago I have begun the diet again and today I went to the gym again.

after a short work out (best not to do too much first time back) I weighed myself I was half expecting that I would have not only put back the weight I had lost but more. However I was suprised to see that not too much damage has been done. yes I did put on weight but not as much as I had feared. I am 91.4kg which equals 14.393 stone.........um not good but at least its less than a few montsh ago and now I know I can do it.

silver lining

It has been a bad few days.

I have been stressed out partly about money or the lack of it. trying to keep everything going. tying to make sure we can eat, we have gas and electricity and making the rent payments. The other bills are not being paid at the moment.

It would have been nice to go out at the weekend to be somewhere different to be with someone who wants to be with me.

This afternoon things got too much, I wanted to get into my bed and curl up an just cry.

but I made myself go to the gym.

I weighed myself and I have lost weight. I have gone from 92.0kg (14.4848lb) to 90.7 kg (14.2828lb).

my man has just text me......don't worry be happy .........and that was before I told him I lost weight. ;-)

its working

It must be working!!!

today I am wearing my size 18 jeans without being cut in half

another week

another week nearly over
I am learning
I'm mostly managing to keep off the bread and the pastry and the sugar
not weighed myself since monday when I found that I had not gained or lost any weight but stayed the same.
I have now changed my breakfast as apparently that was not a good choice....... too much sugar
I am getting back into the habit of home cooking (don't know how long that will last)

mystery

ok so I may not have been totally on track with the diet this week but I have been trying and I don't expect to be perfect from the word go. It is after all a learning experience.

So why is it that when I weighed myself yesterday at the gym I had put on 1lb

its a mystery to me

not only have I been trying to follow the diet but I ahve been to the gym.

ok maybe I should have weighed myself after not before my workout

I am not going to worry about it
just hope its a different story next time I weigh myself on monday

weight

ouch I just did a weight conversion

I got on the scales at the gym today figuring they will be more accurate than mine.

92.1 kg = 203 lb = 14 st 5lb

so that means I have put on about 2 stone in just over a year.

summer of 2006 I was wearing size 14/16 skirts and trousers depending on the cut.
but right now I am back to size 18/20 which is just so hateful

but there is no way I am going back to the size 24 I was about 3 years ago.

last time I lost the weight it was through stress....this time it will be done properly and it will stay off

do you hear me weight

be gone

you are not wanted

go go go goooooooooooooooo!!!

I feel better now ;-)